You know what I really enjoy about blogging? As opposed to YouTube (which in all honesty, I do love more), I don’t need to look ‘put together’. I can write this blog post sitting on my bed, where I’ve been all week after a horrendous cold, having not showered today, and share my thoughts with you all.
I’ve always been that person that quietly wanted ‘more’ from life, even when I was too young to know what that ‘more’ was. Even now, I still think I might be too young to properly know what ‘more’ is… but I know deep down that I’m not going to be content sitting in an office all day at a job I got simply because I need to pay the bills.
I’ve always said I’m a dreamer… but I think that in some ways, by labelling myself as such I’ve also bought into the lie that dreams are the impossible things you think about while you sleep, the things that distract you from your every day life at the office… the things that never come true.
But I desperately want to let go of that lie. I mean sure, money is nice. It’s really handy for paying the rent, and buying food, and I certainly don’t have anything against working hard – if anything I’m learning that in the right circumstances I positively thrive off it. I’ve realised that those ‘right circumstances’ don’t mean the right location, or the right parking space, or the right amount of leave. The right circumstances for me, are somewhere where I can let my passion flow freely. I am fiercely loyal, crazy dedicated and if I really, truly, believe in something I will NOT give up. As much as sometimes this gets me in trouble (helllooooo previous relationship I should have let go of earlier than I did), I love this about myself. And it’s a lot easier to make the most of something like that when you embrace it rather than fighting it.
I’ve got a fair amount of health issues, and honestly they annoy the hell out of me. I get really frustrated at my inability to work as hard as I’d like to in a ‘regular’ job. I find it difficult to go to work for more than a few days a week. If I get sick, like this past week, that’s me done, unable to leave the house without help for 2 weeks.
My health, plus my desire to do something different, be something special and be a help to people… has lead me on a search – how to earn an income online, while chasing my dreams and helping people, businesses and causes I truly believe in.
The world is against me on this one, it’s not how the story is meant to go. Life sucks, and then you die… as some people would put it. But I can’t stop dreaming. I can’t. No matter how down I get, no matter how much I hate on life, I just can’t give up dreaming… even if I try!
So, I’m going to attempt to embrace it. To stop watching the days go by, feeling like I’m wasting them. I don’t want to get to the end of the week and worry about where all those precious hours went. I want to use my life well, maximise my time on this earth. I want to make a difference, I want to experience the world, I want to see the sights, I want to breathe different air and stand on different ground and eat different food and meet different people.
So here’s to never giving up on dreaming.
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